the high and the lows ;

Went to read my yaplog entries.

Damnit, feel like crying. )’:

Is there really no way to get those times back ? Because I really want to.

And I’m damn angry today I couldnt have dinner with Ahtommees and Candice, but I’m glad I made it for Accuracy of Death . It was nice, albeit boring part in the middle, and apparantly I fell alseep halfway.

Ah, Bandconcert tomorrow. To all SAJC BAND MEMBERS PERFORMING TOMORROW ! HWAITING YO ! :D:D I know I wont be disappointed :D:D

And, to all SAJCBAND MEMBERS NOT PERFORMING TMR, CANT WAIT TO SEE ALL OF YOU GUYS ! and please don’t say I’m obese though I am. ):

Oh, I am contributing to global warming you know? Just by being Me. I am. Damn, I love the earth but I’m contributing to global warming. Damn.

I wanna stop reading, but I cant. Just because, relieving the memories leaves a bittersweet taste in your mind.

There is always something more to eating cornflakes.

You can always do a little more, stick it to your face and ….

and it can always become a mole ! :D:D nicole ah.

and natalie keep using her WEAPON to scratch my back claiming that its itchy. HAHA.

Two movies in two days. Nono. Two AWESOME ROCKS SOCKS movies in two days. One was What happened in Vegas  with the lovelys aka cousins. Kelyn was a spoiler, telling me that she needed to pee at a crucial time. Such an uncanny resemblance to Brendan/Zak. Lmao. And I keep going OMO CAMERON DIAZS BODY IS SO HAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWT. Really! Toned and Toned, and well, Toned. Hahaha. Had a wunnderrrrful time chatting at Mos till something happened to Kelyn’s uncle. My condolences, Kel ! Take care babe ! We just talked about so many things that i could not remember what exactly but there was this group of ahbengs keep staring at us as if by staring at us we will shut up. No, guys, actually, you have to walk over to TELL us, then we will know. Stares are unfortunately, ignored by us, Too-Happy-To-Meet-Each-Other People. Haha we are the loud people ! Thanks Farley for sending us home and yes, when I have the cash I willl pay for the stupid petrol. Haha.

Second one was Made of Honour with Von today. Met up with Jing/Von at AmkHub. Wha such a boring place. Haha. We ate pepper lunch and yakkkkked till Jing went home to prepare for her interview today. I’m such a lousy friend, keep asking her not to go but still, I think its good that she went. A fifteen dollars interview lol. Haha. Then Von and I, being the spontaneous girls that we are, decided to plop ourselves in an outrageously eerie Jubilee Cinema to watch  Made of Honour. Which was a GREAT SPONTANEOUS ACT -pats ourselves on our backs. The movie was nothing short of brilliant and I loved the people, the soundtrack, the quotes, the plot. Although it was the typical chick flick, it was a meaningful one. I cried at the part when Patrick Dempsey confessed to her under the surface of teaching her how to write her nuptial speech. Omo, how to not tear? It is just so saddening to see someone’s love one escape from his hands. Yes, I think it hurts more than your own loved one escaping from your own hand because, erm, things are always clearer to the bystander right? Haha absolute rubbish.

Then we started to talk and talk outside Amk Station. At first we wanted to head home already but then one topic just led to another and we chatted for almost TWO HOURS. Hahaha ! Amazing women we are I know ! :D:D It was great catching up with Von who if disappears disappears for a donkey ass long time. Hahaha.

I have half a mind to ask Ahtommees / Animals for mahhhjong session tomorrow but so late already will they want ? Sigh. And I wanna make something for my juniors. How ? Damn I dont wanna work on sunday ):

Haha if free please watch ! Its really addictive. Damnnnnnn funneh. HAHAHAHA.

Haha Yunho looks so charming when he was younger. But now,

HE LOOKS EVEN BETTER RIGHT ! HAHAHAA.

I dunno why Fung don’t like him leh. Haha. So kewt how to don’t like?

I really hope the Sea of Red in the Hollywood Bowl will be a Huge Success !! I wanna be there !

Those who still do not know, I am really in lurrrrrrrveeeeeeeeeeeeeee with David Cook’s Always be my baby. Like LOVE to the extent that my life comes to a standstill when he sings this song. Haha.

Okay, wait. It is David Cook’s turn on American Idol.

…

He’s done with the first song. Not as impressive though ]: I agree with Randy !

Anyhoots, today was an interesting day. Went to work as usual and did a very horrible job as cashier dunno why. Lied to everyone who wants to drink CokeLight that it was sold out and why is everyone asking for Milo ?? :\ Haha. But I love it when there is a crowd. The challenge to clear it as soon as possible makes work so fun and not to mention that time ZOOMS past. Haha.

Then I went for the NAC briefing. The people there are simply awesome. Damnit, I wished I wasn’t so impressed with them so I could stop saying Awesome ! Cool ! Haha. I met a person majoring in Theatre and a girl teaching art to children with special needs. Their lives are so interesting that I feel so inferior and disappointed that I did not follow my dreams.

Layla and I went for a Milo (I blame it on the customers larrrrrrr) at Polar. Haha, so wierd right, we went Polar for Milo. Ripped off. Haha. But anyway our conversation is simply random, from the stupid PAP system, to Paris Hilton, to baking. Haha. On the conversation of applying for film since my interest was there, she asked me ‘But did you even try?’ ):

And someone said that I have good skin and look like I could bake !!

Good skin? Rah, my acne. I hate my acne. Damnit. But the BAKING PART made me soooo happy.I am gonna prove her right that I AM A BAKER. Haha.

But anyway we got our schedule and I have a feeling that its gonna be one BIG BANG. There are percussionists, pianists, singers and A BRASS QUINTET to name a few. Being the ex musician that I am, all these caught my attention lah lmao. I am sooo excited for the brass quintet even though there wasnt any euphoniums ( ]: )

Aaaaaah.

Ohmy, What is Jaejoong doing ??????

Our Mother’s Day cake. SO KEWT RIGHT?

Haha. Okay, going to swat off mosquitoes and get attacked by david crow again. Rah. Hahaha.

I always have this surging urge to blog about everything but when I plop myself down in front of my lappie, I just couldnt do it.

Today was Gossip Girl’s Night, so there was no exception.

I’m too disappointed in things and yet hyped up about tomorrow’s briefing to think about anything carefully. Let me just take this little small break and pray for the best. Maybe something good will happen in  view of this.

Man, will this girl ever stop dreaming and hoping?

Yaya asked me today.
“Mychelle, why did you let this little thing affect you?”

I couldn’t answer her, I couldn’t.

It is actually nothing big actually. It was this stupid TKGS girl who gave me a “HUH?” look when I asked her what veggies she wanted. That is not it, she doesn’t even have the BRAINS to tell me that that is not her sandwich which caused a little commotion when her friend couldn’t find her Cold Cut Trio. Damnit, is she too blind to tell the difference between an EggMayo and a ColdCutTrio? I could just tell too many differences and for one, there is the bloody colour difference, latter RED and former WHITE. Does the Singapore flag actually merges into one colour - I don’t think so. And this further proves that the better the school does not mean the smarter ass you are.

And so I digress.

After that incident I was too angsty to be civil to the rest of the marists behind the queue. The thing is I did not realise. Yaya asked me the above question, and I just stood stumped. I didnt know, didnt realise that my anger was splashed on my face. After several silent promises to myself that I would not let my mood affect my work, there I was.

I apologised, what could I do. But Yaya went with me to a trip to the toilet, and tried to enlighten me about such issues. One thing she said that I found quite amusing was ” Ahya, angry with that girl can already what. Be happy to the next customer lah.”

I was never someone who could control my temper or hide my feelings, unless I really really want to. But I guess this is something I could and I should eventually acquire.

Damnit, I really hate girls who give the HUH look. Nobody could be that clueless. No I don’t hate. I abhor girls who does the HUH look on me.

Chill, for there is always a reason to. (:

YUMM. haha.

This is so classic please.

I remember there was a time I was fighting for a tuition assignment with this person.

AND GUESS WHAT.

the person is SUHTYNG AKA RETARDED TORTOISE !

hahahaha damn crunchy. ohmychace. stupid suhtyng fight with me. but its damn crunchy how we hate the stupid agent cos of her stupid accent and stupid attitude. But being the nice me, I was patient with her. Suhtyng blew up. Can you believe it? hahaha Suhtyng, the batch’s resident angel BLEW UP while MYCH the resident devil WAS CALM. holy world, the end is coming. lol.

On the other hand, we were facing totally different situations HAHA.

Hmmm, today I had an attack of five awesome boys, three of whom I cannot stop thinking about now. All Jing’s fault. They are so damn sexy and hot although Changmins hair is so disappointing. OhmyCHACE, i’m swooning all over again. Sorry Jing, I’m gonna pester you so much. HAHA.

 
this vid so ass awesome. HAHA. i cannot take it laaaaa. changmin shi !

junsuuuuu. haha.

And Marie baked verreh verreh nice muffins. I didn’t eat them but they are yummeh looing on her blog lah ! hahaha. I wanna hang out with them again. Cycling and cooking soon dear Marie !

Ooh and I have new friends. They are Nan Thi Ni, Cherrie and Marry Ang Funkie.

Anyway, I’m looking forward to concert day for various reasons.

1) I can’t wait to see the band perform again. Have a feeling its gonna be S-E-N-S-A-T-I-O-N-A-L and I pray that Farah, whom I heard had injured her foot, will get well soon so that the performance will be ASS AWESOME !

2) Sisterhood, Ahtommees, Animals, Alumni and Batchmates are gonna be there WOOTS CANT WAIT. Its been five months since I last met Sisterhood you know, not counting Alevels’ Day.

3) Just being immersed in Band Music :D:D and seeing HuiHong, Joey, Daniel on their final concert. Like how they accompanied me through mine. Owch.

An absolute nothing post, but before i head off, I would like to say, 동방신기 TVXQ SONGS ARE GETTING ME HOOKED LIKE HOW PLANTS GET DISPERSED BY ANIMALS.

life has to move on no matter you are too fat to move or not.

Pugs can hardly smile can they.

And I am feeling like a pug right now.

I want to stop crying into my pillows. I want to stop feeling so horrible at night. I want to stop feeling as though no one cares. I want to stop feeling that I’m a misfit and a unfortunate incident. I want to stop feeling like I am an alien who accidentally chanced upon earth and can’t find a way home. I want to love Life more than I already do, and actually do something for it. I want to stop cursing God for making me ME and not somebody else. I want someone to tell me that I’m fine as I am, and smile at them wholeheartedly, instead of thinking they are probably lying, and why are they lying. I want to feel contented and sing like how LocoRoco sings on my psp. I want to stop feeling that people are gagging behind my back, when they actually could spare a moment and notice my existance. I want to stop worrying about the future. I want to love the world, I really do. I want to learn how to appreciate little actions that actually meant alot. I want to see the world like how my mum does. I want to be contented. I want to choose a whole new different path to walk on but still meeting the people I’ve met. I want to trace back my mistakes and change them. I want to stop looking at other people’s lives and think, wow, I wish I were like them.

I want to stop wanting.

Happy songs make me flinch - things are that bad.

And I really hate it when people blog about how sad their lives are because I cant see why cant they just come to terms and embrace it. 

And what am I doing ? Practising what I preach.

I am not wallowing in self pity.

I just need a moment to myself, despite the nights that I spent wondering too much.

No, I can’t forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that’s just the way the story goes
You always smile but in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

I can’t live if living is without you
I can’t give, I can’t give anymore
Can’t live if living is without you
Can’t give, I can’t give anymore

They say problems are relative. To a model a split end is as big a problem as a split in a grain sack for a Third World farmer.

I should make looking for inspiring quotes as my lifelong mission since I get really enlightened by them. And maybe, eventually I will get to write some.

Like, Life is like a tennis ball.

Hey it is really original. I just need something to erm back it up. I had actually, just forgotten (or forGETten as Xiyu would say.)

Oh and anyway tell me is there any other better way to be greeted by Love when you start work early in the morning and hence you start your day feeling Love?

Nope, there isn’t. Haha.

‘I’m here to pass you some breakfast cos I know you haven’t eaten.’
‘cool ! so now can you help me set up the tables !’

haha HE better come down more often so our tables can be set up faster.

and yes, HE gets my vote dahling ! (: while LayKim votes for the other, I believe that my choice is right. Because, well, WE ARE YOUNG YO ! And, waking up by 6 to prepare food for you to meet you by 7 beats waiting for you till 6pm. Because, the other requires brushing of teeth and bathing and packing school bag and catching of bus and checking of schedule so that he doesnt get you into trouble. SEE?

But, I have nothing against the other one because he treats me to pineapple and papayas. (: Oh and he is probably more mature and he tried really hard to save your ass while the other one inevitably gets you into deepshit.

I’m talking really weirdly huh, but to protect identities. Haha, not as if anyone reads it but I’m just blogging to my own amusement. ACT like my blog is actually popular. It’s quite fine to live in denial once in awhile.

And I wonder how it feels like to be caught between two guys. And to You, make a choice soon before things get worse and the situation becomes awkward. As a friend, I’m telling you this because although its quite exciting to know about all these chasearound, it is disheartening and sad deep inside cos all of us know one of them will get hurt. And none of us want that to happen.

Love kills and saves. Oh well. If it does not start you’re safe. Just like food.

And i’m really tired again. But this book and Spongebob on my PSP (Yes, my efforts on Patapon have all gone down the drain damnit) are taking up all my zzzz.

Haha, and i should announce it to the whole world : JING HAS SOLD HER WEEKENDS ! LIKE ME ! HAHA !

the least i could do for mum, after all she had done for me, is for me to become a better son.

its ironic that while teens always go astray in secondary school, my brother seemed to be taking the right path. its so weird to hear him talking about anything else but games. like how he is so interested in biology but should he pursue creating computer games as a career. its just wierd but for what he said about my mum, and how he requested me for help in his studies, i’m just so damn proud i have him for my brother.

family time is just very important.

oh my mum is always the classic one.

( at the psp shop, waiting for my psp to be repaired )

mum: eh uncle, faster leh, i wanna go home watch soccer.
(looks around and spotted teevee)
mum: oh nevermind, take your time, your shop have can watch here.
(all of us look around confused while uncle snickers behind vaio)
mych: erm, mum? thats not the show, thats a game. winning eleven.

LMAO.

tired and sick. damnit.

kelyn get well sooooooon (:

the answers to the questions and to our prayers.

i just want to know why i’m super moody and cant smile at all.

even when xiyu claims that guys are smelly and girls smell nice cos she actually smelt them and that one of her friend says bladder instead of brother.

and i really want to know why on earth school teachers scold the kids just because the tuition teachers write the meanings of the vocabulary words next to the words. shouldn’t you be like thankful that the kids do not bug you for the meaning? what the hell happened to individual learning?

because of this kind of idiotic teachers, i earned a reproachful stare when i wrote something on the unbelievably clean sheet of english test papers.

because in my life, no paper that lands in my hand ever gets away unscathed.

i’m tired but i still have to go write out fractions notes for the kids and pack my bag because 99.9% im joining xiaowei/ansley/fungyin/nicole at bandcamp yo ! hahaha. albeit im gonna reach damn late and gotta leave damn early the next day.

why huh, brendan always asks me out when im not free. but on the other hand, im not free on the days he is free. so, erm, not his fault.

this is ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

Happy Labour’s Day ! While people are sleeping to their hearts’ content today, I woke up at the usual unearthly hour of 0600 to prepare to go to work.

Which rendered me pretty shagged because the night before I was out doing all these till like 0200:

camwhoring at E2MAX chambers with kelyn! :D:D

then we saw this VIWAWA figure outside : CANT HELP IT LAH !

  poor us, we were ignored by claudia and kimfong cos well, because. haha. kelyn was on her on cos I was busy shooting ! :D:D

my fave photo !

really damn happeh cos i love to take stupid photos (especially those in the toilet ! HAHA) , hanging out with the lovelies talking about everything under the moon, and the stupid but really damn funneh show Over Her Dead Body was a HUGE BONUS. Go watch it if you feel depressed. Haha.

so yeah I was alrightes with feeling rather tired today during work. Just got pissed off by those really demanding customers ( YES I WILL PAY FOR THE TOPPINGS WHALAU WHATS WRONG WITH HER ) more easily than usual and completing things much much slower. Haha really wanna hide in the backroom and do washing but Rhio beat me to it AND still insisted that I am bullying her. Haha but damnit funny la.

Maries going to work at subway too ! At first she wanna try PS so that I could work with her but I cant quit just yet so she’s gonna try WESTMALL. cool shit, now we can compare who can make subs faster ! HEHHEHHEH. Anyway just being random, my virgin attempt at subway was eaten with the section after band orientation and the second time was with Jeremy after trying damn hard to move the euphoniums to SMU. Coming to think of it, I can’t remember what Jeremy ordered. Just ate it when he passed it to me. Damnit. Haha.

Haha, saw this Beatle at the carpark after work. Lol. Its such a beeyootay ! I wanna drive a Beatle and act cute who cares. There is even a Herbie Reloaded sticker at the side but I couldnt take a photo because the Macs delivery guy smoking there was giving me weird looks.

I came up with a new word for this certain group of people. No prizes for guessing what : fuckla.

You cannot blame my annoyance with them after being stuck in a bus with them after a very tiresome tuitioning session and they refuse to move their fawt asses to the back of the bus. WHICH PART OF MOVE TO THE REAR DID YOU NOT UNDERSTAND. oh, maybe they really don’t. MWAHAHA. We should really translate it into their language anyway.

On a plus note, I’m contented today because I managed to show ChongYou that I’m not stupid and can explain maths questions properly. HAHA SO STOP LOOKING DOWN ON ME YOU. And I love having lessons with Daniel because he just stares at you with this set of puppy dog eyes and go ‘HUH?’. Made me melt I swear and stop it lah, I’m not paedophilic. Let’s just say I have the makings of a pediatrician MWAHA.

And I saw this really sweet ‘I LOVE YOU’ in the carpark today made out of candles albeit the part that its actually littering. But its still so sweet anyway and I’m so happy that there are so many people out there indulging in love and making up for the voids that we loveless ones left.

Just, because.

Speaking of Love, I got remembered by Weiyang’s attempt to know this girl and I cant stop laughing again. Although I was trying to encourage him through msn BUT its still damn funny. Whalau, cannot take it already lah.

‘Guess I didn’t know you
‘Guess I didn’t know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I’m feeling
Now that I don’t
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
‘Cause I don’t have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn’t give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, ’cause baby

 When you left
I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please, ’cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough?
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up?
Who’s gonna take your place?
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together