when you think about it, happiness is really all in your hands.

like maybe you can cook a pack of maggimee when you have a craving, and feel happy about it or refrain from eating because its too fat.
but then, you may feel happy when you lose a few kilograms for not eating at night.

Hmmm maybe that is a weird analogy. Thats what waking up for nothing in the morning, failing a riding prac, going for a silly but fun yog prac and then rushing to a meeting where numbers (and people) swarm to you can do to your sense of logic.

But what i mean is, if you are happy and you know it, clap your hand!

野口好帅哦！

we haven’t spoken for so long
but how can you frustrate me the moment you speak to me
and you didn’t realise that its a monologue.
i get it, i get it, you know.
wha, its time that you get fucked out of my head, seriously.

hope/ hoping is just like buying those minibonds.

we all hope simply because we anticipate the high returns (reciprocity of love, dreams come true)
we invest more as fixed deposit because we want even higher returns.
but when it all comes crumbling down because of a wrong turn
we lose all that we had invested, our hope our joy, and we end up devastated.

then we cry, we go on strike, we protest, we complain simply to get abit of that hope back
every protest is like buying that little bit of hope that someone would give back the money
so that Life can go on as usual, we can forget the loss, and we move on.

or we can just alleviate the pain.

when someone actually does that, giving us back that little assurance that is supposed to lift us
we just say ‘oh, ok lah, better than nothing’.
and we take it, albeit reluctantly, and we move on.

but the thing is we should all know that investment comes with all kinds of risk,
just like no matter how much we hope, we might still not get the thing we really want
if we are not prepared to take the risk we should not even hope or hope that much or invest in that first place isn’t it?

it is not that hoping is not good, we all can do with that little bit of optimism in the world
but the responsibility that comes with hoping, just like investing, ultimately lies with us, right?

i don’t understand why when the investment fail because of the mistake of some other big bank
the investors will automatically demand for compensation as though they deserve it.
maybe the government will return the money for the sake of preventing the crisis from compounding
but why will they take it to the streets and everything for the money that should be their responsibility?

afterall, we had the choice to not invest, right?

URGH just very … by the minibonds thing suddenly. something just dont click together.
maybe this is why 203 is so interesting today like how the peripheries will always be reliant on the core because when the core fail in its business it will inevitably affect the semi and the peripheries.

and angst? it’s gone in that moment of smile to a stranger who smiles back.