remininsce ):

supposed to be blogging about the chinese new year reunion dinners i had today (which were very very happy and satisfying emotionally though still lacking in somethings, at least for me) but but but !

not many know, but i’ve been avoiding playing eupho ever since ive stepped down from sajcband. i dunno what kind of phobia came over me but all those bullshit excuses that i made for not going down and blow some air into my darling. 

busy? comeon, im not that busy.

now my skills are all rusty and i cant bring myself to face the fact that when i blow the sound is gonna come all mooey instead of that almost-okay-la-not-too-bad sound before syf. ):

and why am i grumbling.

i just heard the songs tht the anderson alumni will be  playing. OHMYGOD. my love for the music, for the eupho, just came rushing back. i wanna cry. i just wanna cry. i cant suddenly plop myself there and blow some stupid air and spoil their months or weeks of hard work right. I CANT. man. shall just sit in the audience and die while i hear vanessa gillian yijun ( EUPHO BABES <3 ) play tomorrow and whatsnot.

i’m not kidding. ))))))))))):

 sigh nevermind there is always next year (:

alrightes sleep ! reporting for work at 0745 tmr. HAHA. sian.

 oh for one thing i think my dear baberfour jing is so damn amazing on her conquest of junsu.  FOUR IM GOING TO DIE DIE GO ILSAN FOR YOU AND TAKE A PHOTO THERE TOO OKAY ! :DDDDDDD