bonds and kinship

was talking to kelyn about some family stuff and got all choked up about everything.

she and her brother and family.
me having some trivial issues with mavis that she probably doesnt know.

things with my sister are always like this.’
stuck in between whether to intervene and let others know anot.
caught in between ‘let others know so they can help’ or ‘let others know and she will kill me’

my sis is not helping by becoming more and more secluded with her mind these days
save that i dun see her most of the week.

but anyway the talks just reminded me of that fateful newyear’seve when ken kelyn and grandma all stayed over.
the four of us - sis kel ken i - stayed up and had the most emo talk that we ever had.
most of us poured our hearts out - our silent grievances over unfair treatments and bitch thoughts about our parents and stuff, basically circling how we keep thinking how lucky each of us are.

i miss those times i miss those talks
i always find it wierd when my friends tell me they are not particularly close to their cousins
cos i never understood - they have always been an integral part of my life.

i really thank God for them :D

and one more use for blogs - to find out the secret world of your loved ones knowing that it is hard for them to share.