things ive never said

 

i wonder how are you. i wonder hows your As results but nope i do not have the courage to ask you. dunno why whenever i pass by your school i will have this sense of nostalgia of the things that we used to do. like all the surprises that you always try to spring on me (but always backfire. at least i succeeded once mwahaha!) and all the little little little things. how you stood and tolerated me no matter how cold and rude i was. how indifferent and heartless i was to your feelings. no matter how i never seemed to bother, you held on. i just wonder what if i wasnt so mean to you, what if we werent tested (and yes, failed) by the Alevels stress. I wonder if we will be happier and if we could be longer. there are so so so many things i want to know, so many things i want to apologise and talk to you about. now i cant help remembering the time we had the talk of our life by the beach. grant me a birthday wish, will you? and this is not a plea of reconcilation (irreconcilable = cannot make peace :\) , just a closure that should have been done a long time ago. please, will you?

pardon mych, she has not been emo for such a long time already. 

and omgomgomg ! spasmsofjoy! zak just tagged me ! SHES STILL ALIVE. lord save the world yay!
zak! please msg me or talk to me on msn k ! i need to talk to you girl :D:D