Way Back into Love <3

Don’t we all share a love-hate relationship with songs that carries a special meaning?

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but i just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

I wish to sing this song, with you, all over again. And I do suddenly miss your hugs.

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I met my dream guy today. Okay, save that I dunno his personaility, his looks and height are really what I am asking for. And he has the sexiest voice please. And he ate his sandwich with extra cheese. Haha I always find guys who add extra cheese to their sandwich super yummy haha but guys who add extra bacon super disgusting. I come up with weird analogies sometimes :|

Tuition today is funnily irritating. ( By the way I’m in love with oxymorons now haha ) Daniel keep insisting that area is length x breadth x 2 and if you wanna find one side of a square which area is 144cm2, you must use 144cm2 divided by 2 then dunno plus and minus here and there to get the answer. With his own very own logic to support and all I could manage was a huge HUH? when he finished speaking. Haha. So much for my claims that I hate people who goes HUH? Haha.

Tonight was the last night of the opening show (byebye Ilotope! :D:D) and last night of me doing crowd control at boat quay with the crazy bunch of people with herd instincts. Damn, this old man called Serene and I ‘brainless’ and both of us walked off with FUCK coming out of our mouths once we were out of earshot. How how vulgar we are but if you are there you just CANNOT HELP IT lahhh.

My job also includes handing out NEWater and its so amusing how people reacts to the word free. We all suffered really disappointing responses to our free water because apparantly our advertising technique is all wrong. Instead of saying “Hi, would you like some water?”, shouting crudely “YO FREE WATER LEH!” into people’s faces definitely proved to be much much better. Haha. The latter saw people DEMANDING for water and their faces simply seemed to be lit up by a lightbulb. It goes “Ting!” at the word free. haha.

Haha so apart from the anal old people and standing too much, I definitely have a fun time cursing anals with Serene, Cheryl and Charlene, trying to watch the last show despite the audiences today are ALL uncanniliy tall. I also amused myself by trying to act like those macho heroines from Cisco and chase people down the trees. Haha. And Cheryl was damn kewt. She was supposed to ask people to come down from the railings but she went and ask them to be careful instead -.- Oh oh and our usual unofficial gathering while Ivy made her final speech was as funny as usual though we really talked nothing that made sense anyway. haha.

The next time I will probably see them will be Hydrosapiens at Bedok. Otherwise I’m pretty much alone or with one partner. Sian. Outreaching is so lonely.

Found another SA senior, Alwyn, and Shaun’s friend with Ivy. The world is so FREAKING SMALLSZXASD.

Tomorrow will probably see me going to Raffles Place, Sembawang and finally crystal jading with the andvballers. Hopefully a fruitful day but I’m falling sick and am too tired I hope I wont back out on any of it last minute.

I will be ZzZing now not for the stupid Taiwan Show.

Anyway, i’m opening up my house for gatherings tomorrow because I’ll be left alone at home while the family go genting geez so if you miss me haha please tell me I want you here at my house.

See, obviously my brain has become bimbohtically pathetic haha.

How I wish this week’s horoscope is true and

somethings are left like this: a beautiful mess.