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Entries from July 2008

Happy Birthday, Fungi!

July 31, 2008 · 5 Comments

Wednesday 30th July 2008, Sunny.

Today saw a rowday talk very loud group of AHTOMMEES in NEW YORK NEW YORK

celebrating their SHOU XING PO, FUNGYIN, HAPPY NINETEENTH!

During meals, they formed a scandal.

( Wanling needs to be more faithful, tsktsk!)

And took many many photos with the SHOU XING PO !

Hi Fungya! Hoped that you were really truly madly deeply sad and hurt when Cheryl and I convinced you (despite Nan’s unfortunate revealings) that we were happily at Rapture! Haha, and then VERY JUBILANTLY GAY when we got the whole crew to sing a birthday song for you ! Cheryl even burnt her hand poor thing!! Thanks so much for your birthday happening at this time - its like an informal farewell party for all of us! Haha and more birthdays to come yeah !! I HAD A NICE DAY DID YOU ?!

(:

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Pardon My Stupidity ;

July 28, 2008 · 1 Comment

Let me admit something: I never thought I was gullible. I always thought I guard myself too much from people, not letting too much of myself to them until I’m very certain that they are the Right Ones.

Humans Err, so do my eyes.
Occasionally I do make mistakes.

I always thought that Family is trustworthy. And for what I’ve worth, I revealed my deepest heart to them. Things that I never told others, and some, not even to my sister. I always thought that perhaps they were the ones would could emphatise with me the most, and with them, I’ve always reached a standard of my element.

Now I’m in doubt, what have they viewed me as? A Stupid Hypocrite? A Dumb Blabbermouth? Someone easy to do a Julius Caeser on?

Let me get myself straight, stop babbling.
The reason why I awlays talked so easily to them, is because I trusted them. About a million truckloads. I told them dirty linen of my family, opinions of several issues. Another reason why, is because I thought we stood on the same line. Like we were on the same side?

And you know how badly it hurts if you found out your most trusted teammate in Manu is actually planning on signage with Liverpool?

Ah, I know. Its called Betrayal. It is a knife which slices straight through your flesh and bones to your heart.

Trust is an energy, I supposed. Energy does not disappear or get created. It gets transferred. So when your Nineteen Years Worth Of Trust is on the brink of dissipating, where does the energy get transferred to?

The answer is simple, Hate and Tears.

Lets go back to the issue which probably had caused all these. I could swear that I never once pitied you or despised you under any circumstances. In fact, I rather envied you more than anything else in the world because I have witnessed the worst fights parents could have. I could not even fucking remember what I’ve said to cause such disdain on your side. Perhaps, telling you that why my mum has this issue was the one that caused the unhappiness.

If it really caused such a big hoo-ha in your mind and heart, why not tell me straight in the face instead of leading me on that you are actually ok with it? FINE with it in fact.

If you wanna accuse me of hinting that particular situation - I just wished that you could see what I really feel. What do I really think of my dad not fulfilling his responsibility as his son? What do you think I feel when my mum was not free to take __________ for the weekend? What do you think I think of my parents when they refused to move to the West?

I never once thought its because of that reason, I always thought its because she wants to spend more time with her other children?

Once again, perhaps in trusting you have resulted to think that I’m a hypocritical bitch who thinks the worse of others.

It takes two hands to clap, thats the policy I have been brought up with. When you start being angry, there would be a valid reason. Don’t you think it would help if you actually slap me straight instead of stabbing me? There would be less bloodshed, you realised? There would save ourselves the energy of hate.

For one thing, as both eldest siblings in the family, I always thought I could seek solace in issues of the family with you. Now what do you think? Just lack of a fucking dick next to me makes me more immature and hence befitting of your trust and confidence? Perhaps that one day of me not appearing at your doorstep caused such opinion, and whatever that is, I have apologised with sincerity deep from my heart. Today’s MSN conversation just made me realised that in my resolution to accept it as it is and lessen the distance that had been building up between us has been too late, and would be futile. Whats the point really, if in your fucking eyes I’m such a “So why am I not surprised?” Bitch.

It has always been okay for friends to scream bitch in my face, but when it comes to the closest people I know, even subtle discreet hints of such opinions could cause shatter to my perfect little world, the world in which I thought you guys were at the very least treated me like a real family.

“Perhaps its not what you said but its your behavior”

That did it. I remember you once suggested to me said that you are not superheroes and would not know how I would feel. I feel like saying a big HA and isn’t this plain Pot calling the Kettle black?

Just so you know, ever since that issue had brought up,
MANY people had assumed that I was in the wrong.
And you know what?

I never denied.
I just prayed that I did not once again caused a bomb to explode unknowingly.

I saw that you had problems too, for your blogpost were not that discreet.
I got worked up, because I have met with such problems before and I did not want the situation to develop between you two.
Now I am thinking what have you thought of me, doing such blatant acts of concern (fake ones in your opinion i bet). I was the girl and I thought you could perhaps get a woman’s point of view so that you could comprehend her better.
Your coldness in MSN today affirmed that by stopping myself and not blurting out my invaluable and immature comments is the Right thing to do.

And I thought that these meetings these bondings,
actually count for something.

But now, the hurt is really overwhelming.
I never felt such betrayal and disappointment.

Perhaps you too, you would say.

For your information, I was never that ignorant or stupid. I have feelings to. I mind it when people suggest that my character has issues, or that they treat me like rubbish.

I actually do KNOW and UNDERSTOOD things.

And so people see, I do not have such a happy life afterall.

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You Get Dizzy After Awhile.

July 28, 2008 · No Comments

I think I’m really too much.

Life has been good so far, really.
But at this point of time,
I wish I had a Boyfriend Crisis
to let me feel more pain and hurt.

Probably to make to feel more Alive.

Nowadays, it had been all smiles and laughter
albeit the two days of vomit and one week of headache.
When things get too easy,
I get too uneasy

It’s an omen, a very bad omen.

Jing said today
That when one doesn’t have a boyfriend,
One find more Best Friends.

It is definitely an much avoided issue,
in terms of being practical or in acceptance.

Most of us would have realise, in the race of life,
We have lost somebody close, very very close, at least once, to this thing called Love.
By Love, I mean, BoyGirl Love.

People who are attached, try to avoid doing this.
People who KNOW people who are attached, avoid admitting this.

You feel it, and you know it.
You have grown distant from your previously close ones.
Or your Closed One had grown distant from you.

But at the same time,
You don’t blame anybody.
You just look at it happening and wonder what you could do to salvage it.

A few calls to go out,
A few hints on the need to bond,
The blatant displeasure.
We give up, as time goes by.

In the end, it is inevitably realised that
perhaps it is better to leave things that way.
Why make each others’ lives more awkward than it is already is,
and perhaps acceptance and letting go would make it much more better.

To hate, is to hurt yourself. Why hate?
Why harbour discontent?

I could never answer that question anyway.

In several HTHT (quote unquote Yijun) with Kelyn,
We have probed, touched, kicked the issue of Boyfriends Vs. Family.
I have openly declared, Family comes first
and WHATEVER happens, nothing is gonna change.

But then again, it is MY opinion isn’t it?
I shouldnt enforced it or use it to implement any expectations.

Others have their way of showing love and concern,
and being shadowed by a coloured tinted shades, targetted recipients might not receive it.

I have on hand, a very evident evidence of what acceptance and allowance could reward you with.
A Happier Brother and Late Night Mahjong Sessions.
And now, whats on hand, is an acceptance of another change by another Family Member.
I hope it would not be too late
And I’m glad that he had not given way under much circumstances

I can’t promise less bitchings,
just maybe more void in my heart made to condone issues
Close one Eye or maybe two.

Ultimately, he has to move on with his life, get a family.
And this family won’t be mine, just selfishly his.
So what gives me the right to be selfish now?

Smiling could solve much problems,
I’m very much enlightened.

Matriculation tomorrow and I’m awkwardly nervous :|

どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう?

どうして・君を好きになってしまったんだろう?
どんなに時が流れても君はずっと
ここにいると思ってたのに

でも君が選んだのは違う道

どうして・・・君に何も伝えられなかったんだろう?
毎日毎晩募ってく想い
溢れ出す言葉 解っていたのに(もう届かない)

初めて出会ったその日から君を知っていた気がしたんだ
あまりに自然に溶け込んでしまったふたり

何処へ行くのにも一緒で君がいることが当然で
僕らはふたりで大人になってきた
でも君が選んだのは違う道

どうして・・・君を好きになってしまったんだろう?
どんなに時が流れても君はずっと
ここにいると思ってたのに(もう叶わない)

特別な意味を持つ今日を 幸せがあふれ出す今日を
綺麗な姿で神様に誓ってる君を

僕じゃない人の隣で 祝福されてる姿を
僕はどうやって見送ればいいのだろう?

もうどうして・・・君を好きになってしまったんだろう?
あの頃の僕らの事を(もう戻れない)
考えた・・・(もう戻らない)考えた・・・

どうして・・・君の手を掴み奪えなかったんだろう?
どんなにときが流れても君はずっと
僕の横にいるはずだった(もう叶わない)

それでも・・・君が僕のそば 離れていっても
永遠に君が幸せであること ただ願ってる
(例えそれがどんなに寂しくても)
辛くても・・・

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here
But you have chosen a different road

Why wasn’t I able to convey to you?
My feelings that were growing everyday and night
The words begin to overflow
But I know they won’t reach you now

From the first day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
And the two of us melded together so naturally

Wherever we would go, it would be together
It was so natural for you to be with me
We became adults together
But you chose a different road

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)

Today, the day that holds a special meaning
The day that you stood with a smile of happiness
Praying to God in your beautiful appearance

With the person next to you who isn’t me
The image of you receiving blessings
How could I just stand aside and watch

So why did I end up falling for you?
We can’t go back to that time, or how we were (I’ve thought it through)

Why wasn’t I able to take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You always should’ve been by my side
Now it will never come true

But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)

):

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Good Night, Sweet Dreams, Baby Boy.

July 26, 2008 · No Comments

“Ooooh, what a day! I’m damn tired now, but it was very fun today! We made Takopachi!”

“Hmmm, and the octopus legs were so huge. You should see them Mych.. mmmm”

“zzzz.. GO AWAY OCTOPUS! zzzz..”

(credits DNBN)

:DD

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只要包含不完美,我们便是最完美。

July 25, 2008 · No Comments

忽然间有一股冲动
想要用中文 写一个ENTRY。

不知道为什么,可能是读了太多 神起的华语故事,
想要考考自己现在的语言程度。

离开学的第8天 好热

是一个怪异的一天
我仿佛正在活在自己的世界里
在做工作时,似乎心不在焉
现在想起来 也不记得自己正在想些什么。
只记得我一直在读我的BabyBlues,
需要做广告时,我便模模糊糊地打了一些字母
果然!刚才组长过来好声好气地“骂”我

我的粗心大义可要纠正好哦

昨晚,
我放了乌龟的飞机,
与家人到裕朗一带用餐

食物是真的蛮好吃的,虽然是昂贵了一点
可惜我没有什么闲情逸致去拍照
所以错过了好多漂亮的事物的回忆
没关系,放在脑海的某一个家角落就行了!

我在想啊,
当一个人能取笑另一个人的时候,
那个人 (取笑别人那个)其实并不觉得那是事实。
例如,
我常常都说我的妹妹比我丑,
但其实,我真的觉得她比我美美多了。

一个很有钱的朋友
八成不会在一个穷光蛋的知己面前
哭诉说没钱吧。

我想如果换成我是真的比她美丽,
我可能就开不了这种玩笑了。

原因可能就是 人到底还是谦虚的。
(事谦虚吗?:|)
如果一个比较漂亮的人
嘲笑一个比较有缺陷的朋友
会不小心造出一些 尴尬,不知如何收拾的场面
因为,
你虽然本意是善良的,但在别人的眼里 
你可是 好残酷 好不要脸 的 一个 坏朋友

在这种场面的情况下,
你该如何是好,收拾这场惨剧阿。
说,你其实真的是在开玩笑?

可能 好难才能弥补那位朋友被伤害的自尊心。

所以说什么做什么之前,往往都要三思。
万一出了什么事,说错了什么话,后悔常常都会迟到。

回到当天晚上:
吃完晚餐后,我们一组人,带着希芸,希情到外头的游乐场玩。
自己也情不自禁地沉醉在那美丽的童年回忆。
好想告诉他们,
请好好地珍惜现在的一切。
因为童真的回忆 永远还是最完美,最好回味 的一个回忆。

忽然间变得好感情用事。
八天后,便要离开家里的温暖
踏出父母的安全保护区。
尝尝独自一个人的生活
对于像我一样永远不想长大,不想独立的人
仿佛是一场大噩梦!

闲~

哈哈
一定是受到静的影响
现在好希望八月四日不要来!

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Occasional Doses of NatNic.Blogspot.Com

July 25, 2008 · No Comments

Natalie has evolved from calling me “STUPID EE EE”

to calling me “STUPID EE” sticks out tongue.

I dunno whether to smile or to cry. Sigh.

Credits to Stupid Dodohead Mavis Ngui Yu Xian

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If I Die Tomorrow,

July 24, 2008 · 3 Comments

I would give ALL my clothes to Mavis, Lovelies, Babers, Animals, Ahtommees. Lelong!
I would give all the money in my bank and all the lovely freebies to my Parents. And ask them to buy a big house for my Granny. Oh and a little something for my dearest relatives that would make them happy.
I would give my Tresha Joella to my brother.
I would give Poopurrla to my Aunt
I would give my Ipod to my Godmother to let her listen to songs.
I would preserve all my organs and donate it to whoever who needs it!
I would record a song now and ask the Lawyer to play it to ALL (Every single one of them) of my Loved Ones to tell them that Thankyou for being part of my life.

I would give my SEX (the camera duh) to Lynn, Ernst, Nat and Nicole so that they would put it to good use and please everyone with their photo.

I would send every single letter that I have wrote to the people they are meant to be sent to.

I would request God to make me a Guardian Angel to all my family members just to make sure they are safe.

 

Sorry,
But I am just so scared ):

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One, Two, Zero

July 22, 2008 · 2 Comments

Dear Diary,

The flu has not yet left,
causing my ears and nose to be blocked by something as big as the Great Wall of China
(It would be the Ninth Wonder of The World, aye?)

Hence dragging my poor sorrowful self to work today,
caused me to sneeze and cough the whole six hours
Eyes watering like a tap,
Body as itchy as a dirty underwear :|

Horrible,
feeling sick is HORRIGIBLE VEGETABLE!

Whether it is lucky or not,
to have not much Ads to do,
I do not know, because I hence become very bored and drowsy

Thank God for the colleagues
XiaoWei, Ballball, Xiao Ra, Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuihuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuix2, Christina, ShawnZai and XiaoRong
for the entertainment via Lotus Notes. :D

Gonna really miss that when I leave (hopefully in a few days time!)
but maybe I could email them on my personal mail during lectures!
TEEHEE

I just remembered about a weird dream a few days ago,
when I was sleeping with Milo sexually harassing me!

I dreamt that I was the eldest daughter of Brad and Angelina (Prft.)
Then, my little siblings (those whose pictures are worht USD$16M) were just born
and my parents wanted me and my sister (Mavis) to give them their names

and after much deliberation, we chose - Aloysius Luke Pitt
and the girl was.. I can’t remember but it was a pretty name (of course lah, I choose one mah! haha)

And then Angelina (see, even in my dreams she wasn’t a nice person prft)
ordered me and my sis to go register our brother and sister in the most prestigious playschool/ primary school in US (duh, like they won’t get in)
and we try and try and try our bestest,
but were still rejected because they are not even ONE YEAR OLD!

I can’r recall what happened next but it was something along the lines of my sister asking me to CHILL and not WORRY and she went to pator (very typical)
:’|

Haha, but so kewl right,
if your parents are such hawtstuff and you have so many siblings (albeit the risk of discontentment over the inheritance)
but then, its so stressful to be kids of them
simply because you are so famous, and its hard to live up to that name (think, HARRY POTTER)

I had another weird dream this morning too (funny how my dreams actually continues after I slip in and out of sleep)
But I can’t remember what exactly happen - OHNO, which means it likely that it will come true!

But these dreams are good
as in they don’t runaway
and make you sleep longer with more ease.
It acts like some kind of security and let you finish the story it started :)

Yawns.

Eh random much but Christopher Lee and Jesseca look really weird ie not compatible together. I keep thinking Christopher Lee is like a sugar daddy and Jesseca Aw is like the, erm, cake?? Bad casting, Christopher Lee should just move on instead of getting stuck in this kind of roles - a Volleyball Coach maybe? :|

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Fishes, Water and Nineteen Ninety

July 21, 2008 · No Comments

On Satuday, Lynn/ Ernst/ Claudia/ Kelyn/ Gran/ Godma/ XiaoGu/ Hamburger/ Kim/ Mych/ Lihong/ Natalie/ Nicole happily trouped off to the sunny island of Singapore for a simple getaway which is not simple at all thanks to our two dearests and Mr. Sun who went to date on that day.

We’re all VERY EXCITED about taking the monorail because its so small and SO MANY PEOPLE damnit. See, Nicole is picking her nose in agreement :D 

Then, we have to take another bus with 5$3@s%d amount of people to reach our FINAL DESTINATION! Natalie was really hyped up because the bus has no doors! HAHA. Nicole was scared and I did make it worse by making her wave to all the strangers HEE

Final Destination: UNDERWATER WORLD!

 

Some pretty pictures (okay lah, not realy remarkable) taken and its worth 50& of the outrageous Nineteen Ninety entrance fee :|

We are all so happy inside the tunnel! Hence many many happy and erm, weird photos! HAHA.

Hello, We Are Happy Family! (Ernst looks really funny here HAHA)

Hello, We Are Happy Family Two, and we are NOT SCARED OF SHARKS

This is my favorrrrrrritest photo from the pictures of animals! HI PATRICK STAR :D:D

*pouts, I really heart the starfish. If i bite my hair and give you my famous “kern I..” look, can i have them PLEEEEEEASE!

Okay, nevermind. I want a Hamburger instead.

And say hi to MY FORCED PLAYMATE!

and this is my Forced Playmate’s Lunch - Stone? Pebble? Rock? Boulder? HAHA
ITS A BLACK SESAME BAO!!!!

Haha it was a great awesome trip because I have not been to underwater world for the past more than ten years and then its with SO MANY LOVELY PEOPLE! (Ohno, I don’t mean the supposedly-boosters-of-our-economy-but- had- incurred- disdain- of- ALL- Singaporeans coughs people from where our Ancestors come from) Although I missed out the chance to tan, I had the chance to eat with The Lovelies at KOPITIAM, spend time with my granny, see how my Godma steal food and talk alot of rubbish. OH AND THE CHANCE TO EAT NEW YORK CHUNK OF SOMETHING SOMETHING AWESOME!!

Thanks Lynn etc, for not backing out and for everyone for turning up and not have bad moods despite circumstances of bad mood instances.

Sorry Kelyn, I really am! I will change! ):  

And by the way, I welcome Fats of Ben and Jerry’s with Wide Open Hands! :D

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