The Future Might Be Bright and Bleak

It’s not always that I’ve planned my days,
but I’m glad that my days are planned

On friday, I will head over to Lynn’s house to Shop till We Drop and probably stayover at either Godma’s house or with Lynn.
On Saturday, I will spend it with Claud, Kel, The Chews and Godma at Sentosa. I’m not sure whether its Tanning or Underwater World or Picnic but whatever it is, I’m glad for the retreat. I’m sick of cars and buildings and am in need for some nature friendly views. AND on top of that, I’m getting abnormally fair for MY standard and it would be my first beach trip in like what, 1 year. Pretty sad.

And JOY TO THE WORLD, SCHOOL IS STARTING!
Please don’t call me mad or anything, but this holiday have been TOO LONG AND DRAGGY to be treated with gratitude. Seriously, it had not felt like a holiday albeit the part of not worrying about books (which is a very good part, that have to reluctantly let go of). As Suhtyng have said, I have “worked to the max” (although I don’t earn much WAAAAAAAAAH) and it means working every single day for about 10hours till just recently I cut down the hours and salvaged my remaining weekend. Save for Korea, Genting, Genting, Malaysia and the few random DAYS in which I decide to give myself a break, I did not stop working.

Despite of not having the chance to go for any camps and making new friends, having to face lectures and tutorials, the future of WRITING ESSAYS, worry about exams, worry about matriculating, I’m really JUBILANT that school is finally commencing. It means, a whole load of time to do what I want (note the irony ahya because with a fixed schedule I could go happily sign up for my language lessons, dance lessons, etc!) and buying truckloads of colour pens without worrying that it is a futile investment! I will not have to worry about what to do at night (stalk soompi?watch mike he vids?draw?, sleep early? iron clothes? watch teevee?) because my ultimate duty is STUDY

But then again, I would revert back to my old sorry self when there is a perpetual financial crisis which I don’t know how to solve. Perhaps I shouldn’t give up all my tuitions, but HECK lah, I will beg YAYA to take me in at subway! I could never face being a teacher again, unless my student is like Daniel.

OH AND WHY AM I SO HAPPY AGAIN!!
MARIE ZHENG IS MY COURSEMATE!! and I’ll probably be bunking in with Yiting/Marie together!!

AND!
Jing will be just next door and when times get too depressing
I could just open one door, walk a few steps, and then open another door, AND DISTURB HER!
I could go and see see look look at Yijun also!

AND!
Most (save for suh and stupid sotong HAHA) of my friends are within my reach and we could probably meet up anytime anywhere! Vivo and Jurong Point (:\) could be our new hunts and finally I will be so in touch with the West

AND!
I’m so much more closer to the LOVELIES and my dearest aunties. All of them stays in The West whilst my family and I secluded ourselves in the North so I will have more time with my Granny, Godma, Xiaogu, Dagu, Claud, Natalie, Nicole, Lynn, Ernst, Kim, Hamburger, Guzhangs!

THIS CALLS FOR A CELEBRATION.

At the same time, I’m filled with dread. I have not completed half the things I want to complete for this holidays and I wonder if I could ever complete them (like BAKING! doesn’t help if your mum don’t allow you :|). I wonder if I could still muster the concentration to focus in lectures (hmmm, I think I never did!) and tutorials (hmmm, again). I’m really scared at the prospects of doing so many essays (when your interviewer asks “how’s your essay writing” you know it is a SIGN) when doing GP could have sent me down to the Eighteenth Level Of Hell. I’m scared that I would not be able to do double major in Communications simply because of my mediocre Engwish.

Also,
I really want to join Student Union and Band. (Too fat to join Cheerleading prft.)
But I don’t think I can join Student Union because I did not go to the camp ): (not that I DONT WANT to)
I wanna join some recre sports like Kayaking, Volleyball, Frisbee (do they even have!)

However, there is this nagging voice at the back of my head reminding me why my foundations were never strong.

Ohwell,
I still have my medical checkup, tuition grant, etc to worry about.

OH! and Thanks ALOT ALOT ALOT to Kelyn who helped me made the header. MUCH LOVE!