Natalie has evolved from calling me “STUPID EE EE”

to calling me “STUPID EE” sticks out tongue.

I dunno whether to smile or to cry. Sigh.

Credits to Stupid Dodohead Mavis Ngui Yu Xian

I would give ALL my clothes to Mavis, Lovelies, Babers, Animals, Ahtommees. Lelong!
I would give all the money in my bank and all the lovely freebies to my Parents. And ask them to buy a big house for my Granny. Oh and a little something for my dearest relatives that would make them happy.
I would give my Tresha Joella to my brother.
I would give Poopurrla to my Aunt
I would give my Ipod to my Godmother to let her listen to songs.
I would preserve all my organs and donate it to whoever who needs it!
I would record a song now and ask the Lawyer to play it to ALL (Every single one of them) of my Loved Ones to tell them that Thankyou for being part of my life.

I would give my SEX (the camera duh) to Lynn, Ernst, Nat and Nicole so that they would put it to good use and please everyone with their photo.

I would send every single letter that I have wrote to the people they are meant to be sent to.

I would request God to make me a Guardian Angel to all my family members just to make sure they are safe.

Sorry,
But I am just so scared ):

Dear Diary,

The flu has not yet left,
causing my ears and nose to be blocked by something as big as the Great Wall of China
(It would be the Ninth Wonder of The World, aye?)

Hence dragging my poor sorrowful self to work today,
caused me to sneeze and cough the whole six hours
Eyes watering like a tap,
Body as itchy as a dirty underwear :|

Horrible,
feeling sick is HORRIGIBLE VEGETABLE!

Whether it is lucky or not,
to have not much Ads to do,
I do not know, because I hence become very bored and drowsy

Thank God for the colleagues
XiaoWei, Ballball, Xiao Ra, Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuihuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuix2, Christina, ShawnZai and XiaoRong
for the entertainment via Lotus Notes. :D

Gonna really miss that when I leave (hopefully in a few days time!)
but maybe I could email them on my personal mail during lectures!
TEEHEE

I just remembered about a weird dream a few days ago,
when I was sleeping with Milo sexually harassing me!

I dreamt that I was the eldest daughter of Brad and Angelina (Prft.)
Then, my little siblings (those whose pictures are worht USD$16M) were just born
and my parents wanted me and my sister (Mavis) to give them their names

and after much deliberation, we chose - Aloysius Luke Pitt
and the girl was.. I can’t remember but it was a pretty name (of course lah, I choose one mah! haha)

And then Angelina (see, even in my dreams she wasn’t a nice person prft)
ordered me and my sis to go register our brother and sister in the most prestigious playschool/ primary school in US (duh, like they won’t get in)
and we try and try and try our bestest,
but were still rejected because they are not even ONE YEAR OLD!

I can’r recall what happened next but it was something along the lines of my sister asking me to CHILL and not WORRY and she went to pator (very typical)
:’|

Haha, but so kewl right,
if your parents are such hawtstuff and you have so many siblings (albeit the risk of discontentment over the inheritance)
but then, its so stressful to be kids of them
simply because you are so famous, and its hard to live up to that name (think, HARRY POTTER)

I had another weird dream this morning too (funny how my dreams actually continues after I slip in and out of sleep)
But I can’t remember what exactly happen - OHNO, which means it likely that it will come true!

But these dreams are good
as in they don’t runaway
and make you sleep longer with more ease.
It acts like some kind of security and let you finish the story it started :)

Yawns.

Eh random much but Christopher Lee and Jesseca look really weird ie not compatible together. I keep thinking Christopher Lee is like a sugar daddy and Jesseca Aw is like the, erm, cake?? Bad casting, Christopher Lee should just move on instead of getting stuck in this kind of roles - a Volleyball Coach maybe? :|

On Satuday, Lynn/ Ernst/ Claudia/ Kelyn/ Gran/ Godma/ XiaoGu/ Hamburger/ Kim/ Mych/ Lihong/ Natalie/ Nicole happily trouped off to the sunny island of Singapore for a simple getaway which is not simple at all thanks to our two dearests and Mr. Sun who went to date on that day.

We’re all VERY EXCITED about taking the monorail because its so small and SO MANY PEOPLE damnit. See, Nicole is picking her nose in agreement :D 

Then, we have to take another bus with 5$3@s%d amount of people to reach our FINAL DESTINATION! Natalie was really hyped up because the bus has no doors! HAHA. Nicole was scared and I did make it worse by making her wave to all the strangers HEE

Final Destination: UNDERWATER WORLD!

Some pretty pictures (okay lah, not realy remarkable) taken and its worth 50& of the outrageous Nineteen Ninety entrance fee :|

We are all so happy inside the tunnel! Hence many many happy and erm, weird photos! HAHA.

Hello, We Are Happy Family! (Ernst looks really funny here HAHA)

Hello, We Are Happy Family Two, and we are NOT SCARED OF SHARKS

This is my favorrrrrrritest photo from the pictures of animals! HI PATRICK STAR :D:D

*pouts, I really heart the starfish. If i bite my hair and give you my famous “kern I..” look, can i have them PLEEEEEEASE!

Okay, nevermind. I want a Hamburger instead.

And say hi to MY FORCED PLAYMATE!

and this is my Forced Playmate’s Lunch - Stone? Pebble? Rock? Boulder? HAHA
ITS A BLACK SESAME BAO!!!!

Haha it was a great awesome trip because I have not been to underwater world for the past more than ten years and then its with SO MANY LOVELY PEOPLE! (Ohno, I don’t mean the supposedly-boosters-of-our-economy-but- had- incurred- disdain- of- ALL- Singaporeans coughs people from where our Ancestors come from) Although I missed out the chance to tan, I had the chance to eat with The Lovelies at KOPITIAM, spend time with my granny, see how my Godma steal food and talk alot of rubbish. OH AND THE CHANCE TO EAT NEW YORK CHUNK OF SOMETHING SOMETHING AWESOME!!

Thanks Lynn etc, for not backing out and for everyone for turning up and not have bad moods despite circumstances of bad mood instances.

Sorry Kelyn, I really am! I will change! ):  

And by the way, I welcome Fats of Ben and Jerry’s with Wide Open Hands! :D

I’m down with runny nose that trickles water instead of mucus, a cough, and a migraine and burning eyes. Ernst called me that The Company was looking for me because they don’t know where I was. I’m in eighteenth level of shit now but its all my fault, isn’t it? I should have the common sense to email more than one person although i only knew one email, have the common sense to take leave on Friday because I will fall ill on Monday, have the common sense to know who I’m supposed to tell when I wanna take MC besides my supervisor when nobody told me. It’s damn shit man - I dunno what else to say except that I just wish that I am not too late for the Hall camp so that I have an excuse to leave earlier. But then again, before I leave I do not know who I’m supposed to inform or tell - Claud advises HR and my department. Hokay, after that am I supposed to write a letter or is it by mouth? I have heard enough stories of them cheating on payslips and I have already suffered the shock of a blatantly meagre amount of pay and I wonder should I just quit without notice and let all my time and effort just go to waste SINCE it is going to anyway.

Speaking of another Company (uncannily another Government body), they have not paid me my salary yet after the contract had ceased for almost one month. It is not a huge sum, but still an amount of about three hundred bucks (fuck I could almost buy the whole Orangebear), and they have not paid me. Could it be because I didnt turn up for the last stint when they asked me not to go because I had cramps on opening night and hence AUTOMATICALLY I have breached the contract and I WONT GET MY PAY? Hello, I had faithfully turned up for all the other stints (Almost 16 days), put up with the rubbish that you made us go through, the INSULT that I could not speak properly, starved for three hours just for the sake of turning up in time for work, and now you didn’t let me attend the last stint and TADA I AM IN THE WRONG and not deserving of my pay? I do not see the logic AT ALL.

God, people, next time before you get all hyped up about working for a Government Body, think twice. Your pay is meagre and you put up with shite and THEN YOU DO NOT GET YOUR FREAKING PAY. Wha, so much for democracies, a certain government is actually PRO SLAVERY. I feel cheated on and when people now speak to me about how wonderful a certain government is, I would really say NO.

I can feel the hair boiling on, sorry that should be blood boiling, in my body system. On top of that, Tresha Joella is in someone elses’ hands now and although its really for her own good, I feel uber insecure without her by my side. God knows what will happen to my JaeJoong’s pictures and if they are gone I think I really could murder.

After that enthusiasm about going to university the previous entry, now I’m feeling with dread and fear. I do not know if I’m making the right choice because I have always been someone who is keen on a new start, keeping my new life away from the old. I start to doubt if doing this would ultimately give me a chance to do what I want with blithe.  Suddenly I wish I am embarking on this journey independently so that I could escape from my ugly self from the past and evolve into something new (yes, I really hate myself). It is so selfish and weird to think like this because I have marvellously superb friends but then again, going to uni is some sort like starting anew right? By doing what I have done, I feel like I am going to be judged in that same coloured glasses (which gives me a very itchy feeling that scratching cannot resolve) and feel really suffocated.

Gabriella (so smart, Mych, quote Disney Channel people) once said, “Don’t you sometimes wish that you were back in kindergarten and that you can be anyone you want to be when you make friends with someone new?”

 Apart  from that, I feel as though I am invading on other people’s privacy and friendship, like an awkward duck making friends with roses and I just feel really bad about it - Perhaps they just don’t want me there.

Oh man. I wish I’m back in Anderson Sec all over again ): 

It’s not always that I’ve planned my days,
but I’m glad that my days are planned

On friday, I will head over to Lynn’s house to Shop till We Drop and probably stayover at either Godma’s house or with Lynn.
On Saturday, I will spend it with Claud, Kel, The Chews and Godma at Sentosa. I’m not sure whether its Tanning or Underwater World or Picnic but whatever it is, I’m glad for the retreat. I’m sick of cars and buildings and am in need for some nature friendly views. AND on top of that, I’m getting abnormally fair for MY standard and it would be my first beach trip in like what, 1 year. Pretty sad.

And JOY TO THE WORLD, SCHOOL IS STARTING!
Please don’t call me mad or anything, but this holiday have been TOO LONG AND DRAGGY to be treated with gratitude. Seriously, it had not felt like a holiday albeit the part of not worrying about books (which is a very good part, that have to reluctantly let go of). As Suhtyng have said, I have “worked to the max” (although I don’t earn much WAAAAAAAAAH) and it means working every single day for about 10hours till just recently I cut down the hours and salvaged my remaining weekend. Save for Korea, Genting, Genting, Malaysia and the few random DAYS in which I decide to give myself a break, I did not stop working.

Despite of not having the chance to go for any camps and making new friends, having to face lectures and tutorials, the future of WRITING ESSAYS, worry about exams, worry about matriculating, I’m really JUBILANT that school is finally commencing. It means, a whole load of time to do what I want (note the irony ahya because with a fixed schedule I could go happily sign up for my language lessons, dance lessons, etc!) and buying truckloads of colour pens without worrying that it is a futile investment! I will not have to worry about what to do at night (stalk soompi?watch mike he vids?draw?, sleep early? iron clothes? watch teevee?) because my ultimate duty is STUDY

But then again, I would revert back to my old sorry self when there is a perpetual financial crisis which I don’t know how to solve. Perhaps I shouldn’t give up all my tuitions, but HECK lah, I will beg YAYA to take me in at subway! I could never face being a teacher again, unless my student is like Daniel.

OH AND WHY AM I SO HAPPY AGAIN!!
MARIE ZHENG IS MY COURSEMATE!! and I’ll probably be bunking in with Yiting/Marie together!!

AND!
Jing will be just next door and when times get too depressing
I could just open one door, walk a few steps, and then open another door, AND DISTURB HER!
I could go and see see look look at Yijun also!

AND!
Most (save for suh and stupid sotong HAHA) of my friends are within my reach and we could probably meet up anytime anywhere! Vivo and Jurong Point (:\) could be our new hunts and finally I will be so in touch with the West

AND!
I’m so much more closer to the LOVELIES and my dearest aunties. All of them stays in The West whilst my family and I secluded ourselves in the North so I will have more time with my Granny, Godma, Xiaogu, Dagu, Claud, Natalie, Nicole, Lynn, Ernst, Kim, Hamburger, Guzhangs!

THIS CALLS FOR A CELEBRATION.

At the same time, I’m filled with dread. I have not completed half the things I want to complete for this holidays and I wonder if I could ever complete them (like BAKING! doesn’t help if your mum don’t allow you :|). I wonder if I could still muster the concentration to focus in lectures (hmmm, I think I never did!) and tutorials (hmmm, again). I’m really scared at the prospects of doing so many essays (when your interviewer asks “how’s your essay writing” you know it is a SIGN) when doing GP could have sent me down to the Eighteenth Level Of Hell. I’m scared that I would not be able to do double major in Communications simply because of my mediocre Engwish.

Also,
I really want to join Student Union and Band. (Too fat to join Cheerleading prft.)
But I don’t think I can join Student Union because I did not go to the camp ): (not that I DONT WANT to)
I wanna join some recre sports like Kayaking, Volleyball, Frisbee (do they even have!)

However, there is this nagging voice at the back of my head reminding me why my foundations were never strong.

Ohwell,
I still have my medical checkup, tuition grant, etc to worry about.

OH! and Thanks ALOT ALOT ALOT to Kelyn who helped me made the header. MUCH LOVE!

Ripped this off a livejournal entry (credits to YOU!). Just found it rather cute and since I don’t really have much to post up, haha

My life is pretty boring nowadays. I spent working reading fanfictions (and got everyone into a discussion about gays and lesbians! so interesting!) and time past really fast. On top of that, they are passing me more ads and I’m feeling a tad happier! :D

Oh and by the way, the Guardian Angel’s story is very very nice. I can’t believe I actually nearly cried at one part (or to yawn, I never know). These authors should go and showcase their talents by actually publishing their books! Their Engwish is AMAHZING man. :\

There are some rather worthy quotes, but I can’t remember what.

And as much as I love him,

I find it so hilarious the way those fans in forums link Rainie with him. Like, their favorite phase, and how they tease each other so horrendously but actually were showering love. It is very LMAO worthy and in spite that I really like seeing him and Rainie together (the only girl who I wouldn’t mind hee!), I don’t think its possible they will get together leh.

Going crazy online shopping simply because I’m very bored and very happy. :D

Things to Do:
Arrange Batch Outing ! - TO ZOO?
More outings with ANIMALS!
Choose the second colour for my room - horizontal / vertical stripes of lavender?
Decide on layout for room - help anyone?
Borrow books on photography
Borrow books on HTML
Repair Tresha Joella - And reinsert all the whatnots into it.
Recharge MooMoo
Teach Bro EMSC
Finish the guardian angel fan fiction
Wait for NTU’s rejection letter
Write down postits to remind myself points in driving - 2608 is coming!!
Prepare for school! - ie STOP SLEEPING AT 4AM!
Deposit Money, Check bank account.
Arrange Outing to go Lynn’s house! - Hey Lovelies, Saturday can?
Do a blog header - Thanks KEL!
Register for UB’s program!!
Start volunteering idiot!
Start Piano lessons! - Note to self: Songs to master first: Aimei, You Raised Me Up.
Do some illegal stuff/ remind aunt to do illegal stuff.
Actually iron my clothes
Bake brownies with Walnuts!
Do Mama’s specialty - Egg Mayo with Tuna.
Bring it for Kim and Brandon!
Shopping with Babers!!!
Tanning with Grace/ Von!
Situps!
Stop being Hungry Ghost.
Organise one Ahtommees outing - WHA!!
Fill a book with quotes and lingos!
Learn FRENCH and SPANISH!
Revise your stupid lousy JAP!
Design a design for canvas shoes!

Things to buy:
School Bag? - Big Big Tote Bag!
Pencil Case and Beautiful Colour Pens. - To prepare for school!
Kappa Pumps!
Havaiinas?
Orange bear clothes, Online Clothes!
Gym Ball!
Things to decorate my room! :D:D
Apilator! LOL!
Camera and Ipod Protector - Or should i SKIN them?
Canvas Shoes and Fabric Marker
Birthday presents! - Quick Quick!
More Story Books - Go San3 bookshop!
HANDPHONE - Urg I’m trying to refrain from this bimbotic desire but then my handphone really very laopok lah. Don’t Like.
LAPTOP!! - Can I bear to withdraw twok from my bank account?????
Adobe Photoshop!
Mike’s shows! - Whywhy! Okay I’m biased.

Ohmo, the things I’m buying online/ doing is rather of NO RELATION to my list. So little time. Haha.

I just realised I have not upload my photos with the Karaoke out with the Babers. Went to TOPONE and sing sing sing! So shiok lah, sang for about 7 hours!!  

It is freaking cold and super high tech inside! I’m very amahzed by the song selection thing if only it could be moved around!! Haha I wanna learn more DBSK’s songs so that I could catch up with it, especially O! HAHA! Damn hard lah. I hope they will have more of their jap songs lah. Afterall, my fave is BEGIN! HAHA. Great time talking about curling hair and tanning, future plans, shopping with the girls.

Okay then today is the day when the Animals could finally meet up. It has always been only Tortoise and Pigger, Tortoise and Duck, Duck and Sotong. Today was great ah, yakking non stop in Swensens, catching up on each other’s lives (especially The Sotong Who Doesn’t Know Elephant on Pigger’s Love Life). When Pigger went home to shit (@!@!@!) and Sotong to her books (Poor thing but she is getting so much money for it YOU DESERVE IT GRR ), Tortoise and I went to sit under the void deck (machiam some fuglas)  and talk alot, simply because the road back to our parting point is NOT ENOUGH! Haha. Talked mainly about relationships today also dunno why - should be Pigger’s fault. Haha.

I like taking photos at this playground (despite it is my first time there -.-) ahah and the uncle who helped us take the photo (the one with me being tortured) is very good! The picture is very nicely erm, proportioned?? So spastic and cute, all of us were! Haha.

I heard from Zak that Yuexing is leaving tomorrow. Oh man, there are really alot of people who are leaving and yet there I was, living in my own oblivion, never really thought of that losing one of my closest friends to studies would ever come.

But it would, and I’m choosing not to think about it yet. Because I am in a rather high mood now (perfect time for Jing to spazz me with spazzes but she is not talking to me wierd :|) and not really in the condition to think about such issues - such heartbreaking issues.

Whatever it is, I realised my time is running out, fast, and I have to capture it, alot of it, simply because $2000 is too much for me!!! ):

Stupid Yingchern, go so far for what!! (But nevermind, you can watch Manu’s football matches for me heehee!)

Rah, I want something positive from NTU, as much as I love my courses in UB. The financial thing is really bugging me and I really wished that I was born rich, those $10K is 10cents those kind.

Paranoia is games by your own mind.  

KL TRIP DAY ONE ! :D
Included:
Marybrowning (Anyone who goes to Genting must try!),
Airbrush Tattooing
Arcade
and 5 FRIGGIN HOURS OF KARAOKE :D

Seriously, I dunno who is cuter - Jae or the Pandas.
But the person who did this is BRILL!! :D:D　
(credits to dnbn!)

But I do know who is the MAN,

ジャジョンさん　は大好きでった！
とでもかわいいです！
君はどうしてとでも SEXYですか？
(credits to jing?)

(JUST LOOK AT MIN!!)
(erm credits to jing?)

(Okay, random, but MIKE !!! has a very ugly shirt)

With all of them in my life now,
I am so contented and blissful

HAHAHA.

and this,

Who is your DBSK best friend, husband, lover, boyfriend and brother
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Best Friend	JaeJoong
Brother	Junsu
Lover	Yoochun
Boyfriend	Changmin
Husband	JaeJoong
This quiz by lalilo - Taken 465 Times.

SO ZHUN LAH!!!! HAHAHAHAH.

 And to help Fungyin remember her very satisfactory results,

Who is your DBSK best friend, husband, lover, boyfriend and brother
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Best Friend	Changmin
Brother	JaeJoong
Lover	Junsu
Boyfriend	JaeJoong
Husband	Junsu
This quiz by lalilo - Taken 465 Times.

 

如果他不喜欢我了，
但我却不能不爱他，
那我该怎么做？

这个世界上只有我能捐肾给你
就代表我是你在这世界上唯一的亲兄弟
我们的手足， 是缘分绸起来的。

一个人的生命不一定要完整无缺才算完美，
只要珍惜眼前的所有东西，也是一种完美。

天上在闪烁的每一颗星星代表我爱你，
微风吹来代表我想你，
当太阳用阳光温暖大地时，就是我在伸出双手拥抱你。
当天空下起雨时， 就是恶少没有了菜岛阿信有多寂寞。

除了小达在于病魔做战时，
他周围所有的人也在跟它作战。
所以， 你需要比他还更坚强。

I cried shitloads of buckets for this show
but the weird thing is, I cried when the people were not crying
And when they cry I just stoned.

Despite it being an ouxiangju,
it has quite a few thought-provoking points.

For example,
I was thinking, IF my siblings were really in trouble
how far would I go for them? Like HuoYan for Ershao?

My eyes are bloodshot and swollen from crying.
Oh man, I was practically shivering when i cried and biting myself so that I don’t wake anyone up with my sobs.

And I’m amahzed by my ability to memorise these parts.

But there is one small spoiler:
Mike Cant Cry.
(But he is so beautiful, its forgivable. HAHA)